The Juggle.

As I drove home from the Southern Highlands on Sunday, Lacey snoozed in the back and I listened to the radio, singing along with the air-conditioning gently blowing in my face. An ad came on the radio. I can’t remember what it is was for but it started out like this, “It’s hard as a mum to find enough time in the day for everything, work and children…”

I didn’t hear the rest. I was too busy wiping tears from my eyes and nodding in agreement. Before kids I rarely cried. I’d muster a few teary bouts just a few times a year, but now it seems with motherhood comes a steady flow of emotions.

I know I’ve said it before, but motherhood {for me} is a huge juggling act, sprinkled with guilt. Mother guilt. I wish I new the secrets, but I doubt there are any. What works for one mum, probably doesn’t quite work for another.

I think I’ve worked out the magic, I figure out the system and then I drop a few balls… and it turns out there never was any magic, it was all just a fluke.

Some days I’ll feel like I can master it. I feel hopeful and certain that I can get on top of everything: keep a clean house, cook delicious meals, launder my whites to a pearly sparkle, get down and play with Lacey, get on top of my workload, sift through my inbox, create interesting blog posts, return calls from friends and family, as well as pay my bills on time among other things.

And others, like today… I can’t even be bothered with the juggling act. I want to throw my to-do list away, and get down and play. I want to eat eggs and toast for dinner, and let the laundry pile up. I want to let my emails do as they do, clogging my inbox… and let go of everything else I should be doing.

Are there any magic secrets to motherhood? Is it just a matter of giving mother-guilt the big flick? How do you juggle everything?

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  1. I read something today on twitter that went something like “kickstart your toddlers education with kiboomu….” and I felt instantly guilty and panicked “I am going to ruin my children's lives by not focusing on their development 100% of the time, because there are parents everywhere doing that!” Instead I am working five days a week and hoping other people teach my children something. It was great to read this post, I know I'm making no sense but that's what it's like once you're a Mum, illogical and emotional and scary! And you've made me feel that little bit less alone – thanks Nicole x

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