Prior Fat Girl.

I cannot believe I can say that out loud – or have it published on the internet (thanks fat.mum.slim!)! A quick intro about me and my journey…well, I realized one day I am not naturally skinny and rather then going through life kicking & screaming about how I ate just like my friends yet was way overweight, I realized I was going to have to learn how accept the fact that if I wanted to be healthy, I was going to have to work at it.

I checked out a local weight loss seminar – that was NOT for me. I sat at this seminar listening to the side effects and restrictions and decided it was not worth it – that I would rather sweat my way to a candy bar (okay, maybe just a lick of the candy bar anyways…). Every single moment has been a struggle. A struggle to make the right decision over and over and over again, every minute of every day – I cannot say that enough. Every day is a struggle, it never gets easier, the temptations never go away. That day, sitting in that seminar, I just knew I had to change. And I knew that it was me, not anyone else around me. This challenge I had just given myself was between me and myself, no one else. A couple of days later, I joined a gym.

My favorite part of this past 1.5 years is all the new experiences – since I had grown up overweight, there are some things I never felt. Like the feeling of being hugged and having the person’s arms go all the way around you. Or sitting on the airplane and my thighs/butt not pushing the arm rest’s up. I never knew that people really actually could crave healthy food like apples & banana’s. I never was able to tuck my shirt in, now I do it and wear a pretty belt! Or seeing a space between my thighs and not having my thighs rub together when I walk…

I take every opportunity to reward myself and use every day as a celebration. Every time I say no to a donut or pass on even the smallest of chocolate, I smile – I literally stop and congratulate myself. And I have learned to toot my own horn (by creating my blog) so that I can shout on top of a mountain what I have accomplished and to tell everyone else you can do it too! It’s not easy but its not impossible. My mantra that I have come to live by is something I found in a book I read called “Skinny Bitch” and it says:

You cannot keep shoveling the same crap into your mouth every day and expect to lose weight.

So if you are like me, and tired of being overweight & unhealthy, do sometime about it. You are in control of your destiny. Use all your resources…find blogs, books, recipes, control your environment, do whatever it takes. Don’t make sacrifices – make decisions.

And most of all, when you receive motivation & inspiration from me, pay it forward!