Naughty Corner.


I

need to be sent to the naughty corner. Take away my toys and give me no dessert. I’ve been a bad, bad girl.

Losing weight isn’t as simple as science for me. I’ve been told too many times to count that losing weight IS as simple as science. Less calories in, more calories out. Move more, eat less. I get that it’s that simple, but not for me (and many others, I’m sure). There’s the mind games, the excuses (oh, the excuses), the life getting in the way. There’s putting myself last, there’s more mind games, and there’s just not enough time in the day.

I’ve been skinnier. I’ve probably muttered these words to someone else, “All you have to do is eat less and move more.” And I know I’m guilty of gloating this fine sentence more than once, “Nothing tastes as good as being skinny feels.”

And here I am. Sitting in the naughty corner, feeling sorry for myself. I don’t deserve the self-pity. There will be no pity party here. There’s just honesty. I honestly haven’t counted points since I stepped on those scales for the first time so many weeks ago. Why? Because there was laundry to do, little people to play with, work to be done… Why? Because losing weight overwhelms me right now. I’ve put on so much weight that being a better me feels unattainable. It feels beyond my reach.

With a little gentle nudging from friends and a little tough love from family, I know what I need to do now. I need to break it down. I need to create smaller goals that are within in my grasp. I need to put myself first. Put my health first. Be a better role model. Be a better mama.

And as Lucy said last week, “The time will pass by regardless. You can do something about it, or you can choose not to. Think about how you’ll feel in a year’s time. Do you want to look back with regret, or do you want to look back and feel immeasurably better?”

I want to feel better. So… I will. I’ll do better. As best I can.

14 thoughts on “Naughty Corner.”

  1. Good luck! You are not alone in your quest for weight loss. I cannot wait for 'My Weight' not to be my daily focus….then I can get on and enjoy my life feeling good in my skin!

  2. The minute I tell myself that I can't have x,y or z because I'm on a diet, it's the exact second that I start craving x,y and z.

    So the way I've solved that is by eating better generally [and smaller portions] and if I feel like x,y or z, then I allow myself to have it.

    Total denial, leads to binges and gorging, allowing yourself to have some means it's never off limits. It's all about moderation.

    There was also a study release recently that said people who were sedentary but active during the day [eg cleaning, walking around shops, upstairs, after kids etc], burned more calories than people who exercised for an hour a day.

    There is nothing wrong with falling off the wagon, as long as you climb back up on it. In fact fall off as many times as you like, just make sure you keep climbing back up on it!

    x

  3. Just keep trying, honey. I need a good kick in the rear end because I've lost my mojo too. Baby steps hey? I might take that one on board too.

  4. Slow and steady wins the race .. or that is supposedly how the story goes. For every week you are good – you 'may' have another week that you are bad. But don't put yourself in the naughty corner. You are no doubt a wonderful mum who does put herself last – but that doesn't make you naughty – just wonderful to your little family.

    I am on another weight loss journey myself. I know exactly how you are feeling. Somedays I just want to sit in a hole and shove food in my face and tell myself 'well, not everyone can be skinny, what's wrong with looking like this, i'm a good person on the inside'. And YES, all that is true. BUT. I also know losing weight will make me FEEL a better person so I press on.

    It is true, time marches on regardless and the main focus for me is that another month will pass and if I have lost no weight I know I will feel devastated.

    So, slow and steady. Keep going. Chin(s) up (hahahah) and you'll get there. Truly. I will you the very best luck and sending you good weight-loss vibes (-:

  5. It's not a science at all. That's something skinny people say. Emotional eating is not scientific, its emotional. I know – I do it every day! People who don't depend on food to get them through our ups and downs can do the calculations and work it out. I'm currently wading through the emotion of my eating. I look forward to food just being about food one day. I'm sure we'll get there. Loving yourself enough to treat yourself kindly is the key… now where did I leave that damn key..? xx

  6. try the biggest loser shakes. I lost 10k in 3 months. one at breakfast then a little snack for m.tea, one at lunch then a little snack at a.tea then a normal dinner. I didn't have to worry about counting points etc.

  7. Oh my gosh, I just want to give you a big hug! I know exactly how you feel, I'm feeling it right now too. It overwhelms me too and yes, like you, feels way, way beyond my reach at the moment. You are probably just like me, I know all the things I need to do to get the weight moving and keep it off, but so many other things just get in the way of my goals- ie life, kids, washing, ironing… Big hugs. You will get there, I know you will. Be kind to yourself and enjoy this stage of your life. xx

  8. Wow, I read this and it was as though you had written about me. I've recently taken inspiration from those anti smoking ads on tv that say “it's never too late to quit”. I feel like it's never too late to try again and I have everything to gain (or lose – plenty of kgs) by trying.

  9. A few weeks back I decided enough was enough. Apart from anything else, just losing one size would double my wardrobe choices. I'm following Symply Too Good to be True book 6. My husband and kids love the homestyle food and it's not strict in the sense that you can swap any breakfast, lunch or dinner. If you don't have the ingredients – no problem, just cook another day's meal. I'm also saving time as I know what I'm having for dinner. Part of my morning routine is to look what I'll be cooking and get the meat/fish/chicken out of the freezer. And if it all gets too much just regular steak, salad and potato is fine too. I've lost around 800grams per week for three weeks. I'm not for one minute saying it's easy but I can tell you I haven't been hungry.

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