Letter to Lacey: Four years old

Dear Lacey,

Four years ago today, I gave birth to a little baby girl. You. It feels like a lifetime ago, but I can remember it like it was yesterday. The final moments that it was just Dadda and I. And then we were parents. Just like that.

I thought I had it all worked out. I really did. I thought I was going to be the best mum in the world. Over time I learned, I’m not. I try my best, and I couldn’t possibly love you anymore. Somehow, I think my best is just fine by you. You’re my little shadow, always content in my company.

I could never have imagined I’d have a child with such personality and with so much energy and sassiness. Oh, you’re so sassy. Hand on the hip, talking back to Mama and Dadda kinda sassy. The other day I overheard a women talking about her son who was the same age as you, “I wish he had half the personality he does.” I sighed. I knew what she meant about having a child bursting with personality, but I wouldn’t change you. Too much personality can never be a bad thing. Exhausting yes, but I always wanted a confident child. Something I never really was when I was younger.

The other morning you came to me ready to go out. You’d brushed your curly hair until it was wispy and frizzy, and put bright pink lipstick on your top lip and purple on the bottom. You’d swished blue eyeshadow over your eyelids, and put big clip on earrings on your ears. On your feet were your sparkliest high heels. You were ready to go. Where? I don’t know. I can’t even remember where all those bits and pieces came from, or who’s to blame. You like your girly things. I really am raising a princess.

Our first few years weren’t easy. You didn’t sleep and still don’t. I juggled full-time work from the time you were 6 weeks old, as well as looking after you full-time. And your fiesty personality sometimes had it’s challenges too. You loved a challenge and have tantrum-ed for hours on end, never giving up. Sometimes it’s been hard.

I feel like we’re heading into good times, and tantrums {for the most part} are behind us. I’m sure there are new challenges ahead. I love the times now when we snuggle together and have conversations about the world. You make funny jokes and I laugh, even when you tell me the same joke for the 8th time. You’ll see something, like I often do, and want to take photos of it. I love that you see the beauty in the every day. That makes my heart sing.

Don’t tell anyone, but you have a boyfriend. You’ve been best friends for the past year and the feeling is mutual. It’s about the cutest thing I ever did see. Nehimiah is his name. The good thing is, you think kissing is positively gross. Phew.

As I write this you’re lying beside me in bed, your little body snuggled up against mine. There is all the space of the bed, but you want to be touching me, always. I know I may often sigh and complain about the constant noise and how tired I am. But it’s all worth it Lacey, and more. Being a mum to you is a blessing and a joy. Nothing makes me happier than your little laugh and your big smile.

Often you’ll ask me, “Are you happy mum?”
To which I reply, “Yes, Lacey.”
“Can you show me your happy face?” you ask.

Lacey, I wish I could show you my happy heart. It’s filled with love. Thank you.

Mama xx

  • http://www.blogger.com/profile/02169690744719137471 Brittany@Love Stitched

    So sweet…lovely letter!

  • http://www.blogger.com/profile/10903806247994612318 Ally

    So perfect… Enjoy your day !
    Ally
    http://www.quiltingmumma.blogspot.com

  • Melissa

    Beautiful. I'm a new reader, first time comment maker and brand new mum.
    My daughter is three months old and my heart practically bursts with love when I look at her.
    Your letter to Lacey just made my eyes well up with happy tears. I keep saying that I can't wait until my little girl can hug me back, hold a conversation, joke and dance like a fool with me.
    This post just reminded me to cherish every moment, be grateful for every smile and new experience. To live in the NOW and stop wish our lives together away, because it goes so fast.
    Thank you.

    • http://www.blogger.com/profile/02167267576456836722 Chantelle {fat mum slim}

      Oh yes, enjoy each step of the way. They grow up so quick and I can't quite remember what she was like at 1 or 2. xx

  • http://foodfromourlife.wordpress.com Kate

    Gorgeous, tears – just a beautiful post & sums up probably every Mumma's feelings – Our beautiful boy turns 4 in a couple of weeks – where did that time go?
    Wouldn't change a thing – life is grand!!

    • http://www.blogger.com/profile/02167267576456836722 Chantelle {fat mum slim}

      I want to know where it went too? It's gone by crazy fast!

  • you just made me cry with these last words. i got a boy with that huge personality, too. a challenge…the tantrums.

    but I love him.
    thanx

  • http://www.blogger.com/profile/11894384858566782943 Sammie

    So lovely, I have happy tears in my eyes reading that.
    Makes me wonder what my little girl will be like when she grows… Already seems to have personality plus and throws tantrums at 7 months!!!

  • http://www.blogger.com/profile/10636733684319754731 margie uk

    As always Chantelle a perfect letter to Lacey

    • http://www.blogger.com/profile/02167267576456836722 Chantelle {fat mum slim}

      Thanks Margie. x

  • http://www.blogger.com/profile/18189385064645046382 Meme

    Happy Birthday, Lacey!! Hope you all had a wonderful day!!

  • http://www.blogger.com/profile/12259233861448680849 L.Thompson

    Such a beautiful letter, after reading this, I have decided to write a letter to my daughter each birthday and keep them for her until she has a child of her own!

    • http://www.blogger.com/profile/02167267576456836722 Chantelle {fat mum slim}

      I did it every month until she was about 3, now I do every year. It's great to look back on. I'll do it for all my kids, if I'm blessed with more.

  • http://blog.scissorspaperrockdesigns.com.au/ Claire Chadwick @ Scissors Paper Rock

    Beautifully said Chantelle. She'll read this one day & be filled pride that you're her Mumma.
    Happy 4th Birthday little Lacey!
    x

  • Sarah A

    Just gorgeous, Telle. Happy Birthday Miss Lacey! Have a lovely day xx

  • http://www.blogger.com/profile/02106139576455315935 Monica

    Such a sweet letter! Hopefully one day she will get to read it!

  • http://www.blogger.com/profile/00298023315982931392 Farah

    With teary eyes I say what a beautiful letter. Something that she will cherish, once she's old enough to read it. Every little girl should have a loving mum like you. Lacey is a lucky girl to have you and you are lucky to have her as well. Happy Birthday Ms. Lacey. Enjoy your day. Birthdays are magical at that age.

  • http://www.blogger.com/profile/16557949399382919206 Lulu froufrou

    Happy Birthday Gorgeous Lacey – 4 already. Such sweet sweet words Chantelle.

  • Kirsty S

    I just cried… again. Lacey is a very lucky girl… and I know you think you are a very lucky Mama.

  • http://www.blogger.com/profile/17867044305015053779 Bel

    Just beautiful.
    Happy Happy Birthday to your sweet sweet Lacey.
    And Happy Birth-Day to you, enjoy the celebrations.
    xx

    • http://www.blogger.com/profile/02167267576456836722 Chantelle {fat mum slim}

      Thanks Bel. How old is Sadie? I can't remember is she's older or younger than Lacey. x

  • http://www.blogger.com/profile/00328743107503353336 Simone

    Happy Birthday Lacey. Is she having a party? If so, you must share photos. I am currently thinking about Oliver and Felix's birthdays next month.

    • http://www.blogger.com/profile/02167267576456836722 Chantelle {fat mum slim}

      We're just having a get together with family, so nothing themed or over the top. I think next year we'll do something wonderful. Although she wants to be 5 tomorrow. Might be a looooong year.

    • http://www.blogger.com/profile/00328743107503353336 Simone

      Yes definitely wait till next year for the big 5 party. this will be oliver's first ever party and quite nice now he is in kindergarten.

  • http://www.blogger.com/profile/11416451148055700239 Elisa {with grace and eve}

    Beautiful! Lacey will cherish reading this when she's older. Treasured moments captured forever xx

  • http://www.blogger.com/profile/06495632770866011269 Cat Arenzana

    This is written so beautifully.

  • Anonymous

    Oh my! That is just too cute. My little girl is now a big girl but we still sit on the sofa and cuddle when she visits. When she was four we used to say she was “four going on forty”! Sounds like your beautiful Lacey is just like my beautiful Zoe was at that age. Continue to enjoy her. :-) Happy Birthday Lacey.

  • http://www.blogger.com/profile/17994246142927246013 Charmaine

    Oh how gorgeous, im sad i dint write letters like that to my children but i did start when they were older and i have a few on my blog for them. My two are 16 and 18 now and cliched as it is, time does go so fast, and Chantelle i have a hard time remembering how they were as little peoplexxxx But how i love the awesome adults they are now! My daughter is also a sassy one and has been since day dot. I remember thinking when she was born, “this girl is going to rip the ribbons out of her hair and pull the lace off her dresses” Enjoy your journey together it is an amazing hard and rewarding job, as all of us mums can attest! Oh, and Happy 4th birthday Laceyxx

  • http://www.blogger.com/profile/13535697821513502578 Miss Directions

    Beautiful. Happy Birthday to Lacey :-)

    I hope you have this hand written and saved in a box to give her when she's 16/19/21!

  • http://www.girlsguidetosanfrancisco.com girlsguidecity

    this is beautiful! happy birthday to Lacey! She's so lucky to have this letter to read and cherish throughout her life!

  • http://www.blogger.com/profile/08915960873730826839 Anna @ green tea n toast

    Gorgeous gorgeous. Happy birthday Lacey!

  • http://wordfrombird.wordpress.com/ wordfrombird

    Chantelle this is so gorgeous! Made me tear and become excited for when the times comes for me to be a mother. Blessed are you with your little one.

    Happy Birthday Lacey! xx

  • http://www.blogger.com/profile/13281456040346191935 Flapjack Melody

    These photos are gorgeous and you words are so beautiful.

    FJM
    x

  • http://www.blogger.com/profile/14800218969854372400 Tamsyn

    Happy Birthday Lacey. This is such a beautiful post :)

  • http://mamatribe.wordpress.com/ mamatribe

    Happy Birthday Lacey
    It's been a pleasure to 'watch' you grow over the last 4 years through the eyes of your mama.
    Becks
    x

  • http://www.blogger.com/profile/11588615594762636965 Dusty

    What a beautiful letter. Something she'll always have to treasure! Blessings and happy birthday to your special little girl!

    Dusty

  • http://www.blogger.com/profile/14448725035263123529 Trexxann

    Your letter to Lacey is just beautiful. As I read it, I realised that aspects of it could have been written by me to my now 5yo daughter. I know sassy! :) Happy 4 years together and Happy Birthday Lacey. xxx

  • http://www.blogger.com/profile/00545008138362955040 Ruby’s

    The best post I have read in long time.

    • http://www.blogger.com/profile/02167267576456836722 Chantelle {fat mum slim}

      Thanks Ruby. That means a lot. x

  • http://www.blogger.com/profile/17308017603833727278 Hula Girl

    Just lovely. I enjoy how you share the good and the bad and the ugly and it's still a beautifully sweet loving letter.

  • http://www.blogger.com/profile/07242717060437622087 Salz DummySpit

    nawww thats so sweet. what a great idea to do on their birthday. hope she has an awesome day.

  • http://www.blogger.com/profile/04660326954591560370 E.

    Great post. Happy Birthday, Lacey.

  • http://www.blogger.com/profile/07692847059959713508 Lisa – Sweet Little Pretties

    Happy Birthday Lacey!

  • http://www.blogger.com/profile/13205159281866934702 jody

    Happy Birthday sweet Lacy! x

  • http://tinybeans.com Sarah-Jane Kurtini

    A beautiful letter. She will treasure these when she's older. Happy Birthday Lacey x

  • http://www.blogger.com/profile/17875097844853324571 Hello . My name is Melanie .

    How beautiful <3 xx

  • http://www.blogger.com/profile/16161746734690798049 Ashley

    This is beautiful! I don't know you, but I just found your blog and I think it's amazing!

  • http://www.blogger.com/profile/15761220164069379437 Maxabella

    Happy birthday to your lovely little girl. She is growing up so beautifully. I can't believe you're at FOUR already!! Have I been following your blog for three years? Why yes, yes I have. x

    • http://www.blogger.com/profile/02167267576456836722 Chantelle {fat mum slim}

      Yes! xx

  • http://www.blogger.com/profile/04215161182830545561 Reannon Hope

    Lovely words Chantelle….Birthday wishes to your girl & a congrats to you & Lacey's dad for doing a great job xx

  • http://octaviaandvicky.com/ octaviaandvicky.com

    Happy Birthday to Lacey. Beautiful photos, as always.

  • Miss Cocoaops

    What a lovely way to show your daughter how much you love her! My girl is 12 and I cherish every kiss, cuddle and shared time we have together, as they are definitely not as frequent as they used to be. 4 is such a gorgeous age, enjoy it!

  • http://www.blogger.com/profile/10593478482380900371 Michelle

    A beautiful letter. My big girl (9) was a lot like Lacey by the sounds of it. My little girl (4) is a whole lot of different wonderful. You brought tears to my eyes with your love letter to your little girl.

  • http://www.blogger.com/profile/15392707475516091658 Vanessa Negrão

    My younger sister was just like Lacey when she was a baby (except for the fact she loved to sleep haha), even in the looks, the cute blonde curly hair… She was a handful of work to my mom. We could usually see how tired she was.

    Now she's 26 and is one of the best human beings I've ever met. Be sure your baby is going to be a great woman when she grows up :)

    • http://www.blogger.com/profile/02167267576456836722 Chantelle {fat mum slim}

      I think you're right. x

  • http://www.blogger.com/profile/05861380625452005012 Ladies Holiday

    Oh Mum, You've brought tears to my eyes. So lovely.

  • http://simpleandaphoristic.wordpress.com/ simpleandaphoristic

    I'm in Love with your blog, you're such a good writer. And i love your “photo-a-days” :)

    • http://www.blogger.com/profile/02167267576456836722 Chantelle {fat mum slim}

      Thank you so much! x

  • http://oddlovescompany.com/blog/ Katybeth

    Lovely! I am fond of saying when people remind me how fast children grow up—yes they do but for me being a mom just gets better and better. I hope that is true for you and Lacey.

    • http://www.blogger.com/profile/02167267576456836722 Chantelle {fat mum slim}

      Oh I like that. xx

  • http://www.chaoticandcrafty.com Amber

    What a beautiful post! Thank you for sharing :)

  • http://www.blogger.com/profile/13080722186604676424 Rachel Noel

    Beautifully written!

  • http://www.blogger.com/profile/14866133678868725782 beach bum chix

    My daughter, who we were told would never be, will turn four this year too. I cannot fathom it. Your every word tugged at my heart. Happy happy birthday to your precious little one!

    • http://www.blogger.com/profile/02167267576456836722 Chantelle {fat mum slim}

      Oh happy birthday (later this year) to your little miracle. x

  • http://www.blogger.com/profile/15779628159935114606 Drama queens mum (Kimberly)

    That's very sweet. I love her tutu.

  • http://www.blogger.com/profile/10414334346423383943 Little Pudding by Larissa Huntington

    Beautiful, Chantelle. Made me cry happy tears. Larissa xx

  • http://www.blogger.com/profile/08307189695345673973 Rachel

    This brought a tear to my eye! so beautiful x

  • http://www.blogger.com/profile/05646678720897666844 Brenda Lui

    Happy Birthday Lacey :)

    I feel like I am behind you a year! My little Pearl is 2 & 3/4 and has been a handful from the get go. Tantrums from 6 mths(yes that's right) no sleep for first 7 mths (we only turned it around after going to Ellen Barron a God Send!)She has a personality like no other – a live wire that's for sure & no one I know can know what is it like to have my Pearl… but she sounds similar to your Lacey.

    She has a love of all things pretty, only ever wants to wear skirts, dresses or tutus and must have lipstick on each morning with pretty necklaces too. Pearl can be very independent and stubborn but I think later on she will grow into a strong self asserted women like your Lacey – no one will dare push them around – we will be proud of them for sure :)

    http://www.amumassanityandstyle.blogspot.com.au/

  • http://www.blogger.com/profile/00044812604091459779 Julie

    You write such beautiful letters Chantelle!! They will be wonderful memories for you and Lacey when she's older.

    Happy 4th Birthday Lacey!

  • http://www.blogger.com/profile/16686232441165927141 lisasdream

    That is so gorgeous – how cute is Lacey! If she is that determined and sassy now…watch out world because Lacey will rock when she is older :)
    Hope that she holds onto her gorgeous personality forever.

  • http://www.blogger.com/profile/12162092284318507868 Caspalovelee

    Such a nice letter. I hope my son has a strong personality, like your babe. Happy birthday Lacey.

  • http://www.blogger.com/profile/03229403335314406390 Lisa

    Oh to be 4 and fancy free. Lacey looks so relaxed and happy, you are one lucky mum.

  • http://www.blogger.com/profile/06884263032588768691 Saffron

    That brought tears to my eyes. What a lovely mum you are. x

  • http://www.blogger.com/profile/07253475082724266959 mayeli400

    Just teared a little bit, thinking how sweet life is, yes, those exact words I could write about my own princess who is only 3 but it just feels like it was only yesterday she was born.

    life if amazing!

  • http://www.sangthebird.com.au leah of sang the bird

    This gave me goose bumps. Thank you, it is so beautiful! Enjoy your precious, vibrant princess xxx

  • http://www.trudyflorence.com Trudy Florence

    This is amazing. She is one lucky girl. It made me miss my mum so so much!

  • http://www.blogger.com/profile/02686562926314706848 lisalove1211

    This gave me tears, so beautiful.

  • http://www.facebook.com/mandy191175 Amanda Roberts

    I read this while sitting at work and tears welled up in my eyes. I have 2 daughters 15 and 17 and cannot believe how quickly time has passed. I can truly say that I love being a mum….It is the best thing that ever happened to me.